dear journal

i have decided to put myself out there and start expressing my feelings online, to me the split between my husband and I was not hard for me, what is hard for me is the fact that I moved in family. family is family that's all you i can say sometimes we get along others times it just Tenisha is so moody. that is all i will say for that. amy who i wrote this poem that i would like to get read so i'm posting that. among other things the first few months went well without him, because my lack of income i got medicaid and i started seeing all specialists that i needed to good news right. well i have had two surgeries so far i still need more i have trigger and i still am considering weight loss surgery. i lost 40 gained back twenty and i am back on weight watchers no exercise because of all my pains. my appointments have slowed down but i go to my therapist every week because i am still depressed but i am trying to overcome. i have sit backs i'm in a bad place right now, but i have been through so much but i hope i can grow stronger than ever. hence forth here is my poetry. My happily ever after, ended 9 years later in disaster, I brush away battle wounds and heal more each day, I know I will never again let anyone hurt me that way, as time goes by I sit in my pity, I just need to leave this city, this state, this time, this address, painful nights and by days useless, the love of my kids gives me reason to go on, don't take this poem wrong, the day I told him to leave my love was gone, still sometimes I reminisce like Mary, I remember with Keisha, Mariah takes me to my lost love at school, Usher reminds me of why I was a fool, I realize it was not all bad, great laughs and nights passionate, get plenty of offers but I ain't trying to fall in love yet.